“Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it’s better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring.” Marilyn Munroe.
Hello Amazing Peeps once again. I hope your weekend was the best ever!
Today I’m going to talk about what it’s like to manage the whole tribe on my own.
Hubby has been away for now 2 months, the longest time his ever been away in our 15 year marriage. It has been a massive learning experience for me. It has been great but not without it’s challenges.
The first 2 weeks he was away seemed very difficult as the kids got really sick – yes ALL OF THEM at the same time. Well that’s a little lie, the youngest wasn’t crook. So trying to deal with 9 kids all vomiting and snotty at the same time was………… WOW! Needless to say, very little sleep was got by Mum. Yet I learnt so much about myself during those first 2 weeks.
I learnt that I love the extra work – it’s not the busyness, it’s being thrown into the deep end and having to make it happen – I LOVE THAT FEELING! As I said before in my previous post, having to chainsaw wood with the massive 28″ bar was challenging. I did it but it was really hard work. Yet I loved the challenge. This is a great attitude for moving aboard the boat.
I also realized how my style of parenting changes dramatically when his not here. I am definitely more lenient and less likely to yell. I don’t really know why. I think it’s because he likes everything a particular way and I am more relaxed. Not that the kids don’t have to do their chores or look after each other but as long as it is done to a half decent standard, I’m happy.
Secondly, I have more time to meditate so I’m calmer. Maybe that relates to why I’m more lenient. I try to meditate both morning and night, which I haven’t done when his here, mainly cause I’m embarrassed. I’m still trying to impress him after all these years.
Although some may sound like positives, I definitely laugh less, I sleep worse and I miss seeing his cheeky face. He is gorgeous and there is nothing better than waking to the sight of his face. He makes me laugh so much even though he also makes me more stressed. I know the stress is not his fault, it’s my feeling of self inferiority. I need to love me for me and I will stress less about him.
He has never put the pressure on me, I put it on myself. His so cruisey that if I was to meditate, he wouldn’t care or think I look silly or any of those things that go though my head. I just imagine that he thinks these things. The one thing I have to remember is he is not that complicated.
So my new intention – Love myself for who I am and know that Hubby loves me just as I am.
So let’s Love ourselves, Love each other and Have a Spectacularly fantastic day.